A past transgression jeopardizes Sydney's life.
Characters: All the characters
Classifications: Genres: None
Warnings: Warning: Language, Warning: Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 21 Table of Contents
Completed:No
Word count: 45808
Read Count: 61633
Cleaning up SIS and the mess Raines and Sydney made since 1993 when I graduated from University.
I'm part British, part Italian, a full-time editor with two magazines and former journalist with a newspaper.
I've won several web awards and citations including fanfic in 1999 and 2001.
I've been a fan of TP since 1998.
I have beta read for hundreds of authors.
I am an honest reviewer. If you ask for reviews, if you claim that you don't mind if I "think your story is terrible" or "please be honest and tell me what you think", then you shouldn't cry when I tell you the truth. ;)
When you only have one consistent reviewer, you might not get the proper feedback you need. Being honest isn't the same as being mean.
A past transgression jeopardizes Sydney's life.
*can't stop reading.
I'm drunk on brilliant grammar and still in this storyverse/not back in reality yet.
Hi, The Miss Parker.
Thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedAhhhhh. Oh I love this. I love how Miss Parker recognizes she is not invincible and can't magically save him, and is allowing herself to cry. I love everything about it.. except that there isn't more to read. Hurry and update. Love you.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedWoot! You make my month! More?
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Awesomezs. My 2 fav things. Mirage and more Mirage. Know that I'm grateful for your hard work. I'm also grateful for twitter. I wouldn't know about the updates without twitter like it or hate it. I love twitter. It's not so bad if it led me back here. ;)
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedIf this is going the way I hope it's going I'm going to love it more than I already do. Glad Jarod is alive. He's annoying sure but come on? Annoying is better than dead. I'm loving every word. You should be writing the Pretender novels. I'll say it again. It can't be said enough. I noticed she called him "Agent" and she did that in Nemesis too. You said it was to emotionally disconnect herself and she's doing it again huh? That has to hurt. I love Jarod's apology all the same. He's too sweet sometimes. Longer chapters would be perfect. This goes so fast. I love that there's another chapter waiting for me after this one. :) So happy. Thank you.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedAhhhh in flagrante delitico.... that's always fun. Thanks for making my namesaske strong and not weak. She stood right up and isn't ashamed of her medical decisions. I've always admired her gumption and going through with forced gestation didn't turn out well for Catherine at all did it. You modernize things as it should be and bring the old show out of the dark ages. Sure the men can do horrible things but no one has to suffer the long term consequences anymore. You show her heart when she tells Jarod that no one forced her to love Eli and Avery. Brilliant Mirage. I can't wait for more. I'm glad there's another story I get to visit now. You're doing great keeping things updated. Love it.
You're correct. It sure as hell didn't turn out well for Catherine. Not. At. All.
More was just posted. Thanks for reading and reviewing, The Miss Parker.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedOh Jarod getting called out on his charm and pretending skills. Hell yas Miss Parker. I love this. Damn you always make her realistically strong like she was on my dvds and damn straight she'll be all like 'no fucking way am I having a baby conceived by coercion like mom..even if it is jesus the chosen one's' Way to go Mirage. THe ending here... he always seems to eventually find a way to reason with her.. .she tacitly agrees and doesn't go out and seems to see that he's not so beyond reason himself. I love it. You write them perfectly. More soon.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedWow. "Most people wait until morning.." Jarod, Jarod, Jarod. Oh, my God. "Sleep on it before committing to a verdict" .. he legit invited her to stay for some cuddling naptimes and I wish she had but she is Parker and she is the way she is and this is exactly how she'd react. "This hardly warrants God in triplicate" and Jarod goes on to tell her what all does warrant god in triplicate lol... experiences he survived. The one with the kids... yeah, as a parent I can say that eventually the kiddies are going to creep up and find their parent/s having sex. It's weird and embarassing and Godx3 but it's not the worst thing that can happen. I like that you started this with Parker's reaction to having had sex with Jarod and then walking us backwards through and then ending up with her replying to the question he asked and he's all like yeah, another go please. lol. It's so Jarod ish. I love this. You've honed your craft to a high art. I don't call your writing fan fic and I don't call your erotica smut because it's classy and professional. You don't use slang for body parts... after "grab them by the pussy" I appreciate that. Donnie Drumpf ruins everything. Pussy is a cat. Vagina is a body part. I want more of this. I want to see them together eventually and I hope you'll make it happen. I can't stop reading now regardless. You've got your hooks in deep. Thanks for this.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedThat's my favourite Chopin piece and it's so orgasmic and so fitting for Jarod. I love how you modernize my favourite series and my favourite characters. You write them HOW they are and I can see them and I love it. Please keep keeping them alive for me. You're everything Mirage. This is everything. I love you bunches.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedOh oooh can I just say that Stella is probably my favorite original character of all time and fandoms? Like I love Olivia and Goth girl from Nemesis and love Brandt from darkness falling and Kirkland from a heroes heart but Stella rules!
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedI'm actually glad Miss Parker had an abortion. I used to be antichoice/ govt. control but I was brainwashed in a cult ...religion... if that makes sense..but now I know better.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker Signedsupreme Queen Stevie nicks in da house!!! I love this story! poor Parker tho.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedThey haz the sex omg. love it! need more!
so if there was one thing you could ask Michael t Weiss what would it be?
And have you ever noticed their exchange in wake up episode when they are at the bar...and just before she says "have a drink with me" they share this weird look with each other and he just looks so odd that I'm still trying to figure out what that meant? He looks so different during that shot....do you know what I mean? any insights?
please keep writing. i love your writing
Yes, like a vampire, I must be invited.
On to your next question. I recall the scene to which you're referring, and, yeah, I'm not sure what was going on there either.
Jarod processes events, words, expressions, (and his own thoughts), etc. as they transpire, I'm assuming, at a genius pace, which means I'm entirely unequipped to correctly answer (not being a genius sucks).
I think that maybe Jarod was possibly trying to ascertain Parker's level of intoxication, and maybe atonished/disappointed/worried that he was three inches from her and still alive, and maybe it was a little weird for him because he's in love with her while she's mourning Tommy-the-man-she-loves, and maybe (if he knew then what we all later learned about his meddling/manipulation/torch lighting side quest) he was feeling guilty for putting his best pal Tommy's head in the path of a bullet, and causing Parker all of that pain- and guilty, too, for still being in love with her.
(Didn't Jarod also react to Parker crying--after she tried so hard to hold it all in--on the first anniversary of Tommy's death? It seemed to me that he sorta mirrored her actions, only he drew a breath and actually succeeded in keeping it together- and then vanished like a bastard.)
(No one digresses like I.)
The major take-away from that is: Friends don't hook friends up with friend/employees of homicidal corporations (particularly if it's a friend/employee that you're in love with).
And then Parker was all, "yo, bestie, let's get blitzed together," and Jarod immediately stopped being-- puzzled/worried/atonished, and waved off the drink and went full tough-love, Daddy's-home-so-you-better-act-sober-young-lady on Parker.
Parker, of course, didn't give a fuck at all haha, and kept being her awesome drunk self--- for another minute or so, until Jarod completely killed her buzz.
Seriously, I do like Jarod---when he's no where near Parker.
Thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker Signed
Exquisite Mirage as always. Thank you for this magnificent treat. No tricks this coming day of the dead. More please?
Thank you, The Miss Parker, for reading and reviewing. I hope you had a lovely Dia de los Muertos.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedWild Horses prequel.
Dark. So so dark and canon. Can I say how spot on perfect the characters are all written and fleshed out? You are the master. Your original characters fit with the ones we know. They are well developed and real enough to touch.
I had a shiver of excitement when Jarod entered and quickly subdued Lyle and resuscitated Miss Parker. Jarod vomiting and losing time was a stroke of genius. I think Jarod would be physically ill after seeing Sydney dead and after seeing what Lyle did to those woman. Jarod feels things deeply and takes this personal. He would blame himself for Sydney's death and everything that Lyle has done because he's the one that bought this Miss Parker's attention.
While you wrote this respectfully and we didn't "SEE" the rape you did something else that...wow. All I could say for half an hour was "Oh my god Oh my god."I still have chill bumps all over me. I haven't felt this emotionally upset by literature since reading Circles of Hell.
What you did began before Parker went back inside for the second woman. The way you talked about now and experiencing the future.. future "nows" and still having a foot in "then" you are saying it doesn't end really and rape isn't something people ever completely get over. There will always be the memory and no matter what the violation happened and nothing will change it. You said it all without saying the word rape. We know what happened without you describing it.
I was reminded of Circles Of Hell and Miss Parker trying to clean herself inside and outside. No one else writes about rape this way. No one else wants to tell the dirty truth. The truth is hard and sick. It can't be easy to write it.
You did that same thing again through Broots at the end, how a person would be changed forever after that. You make it so real and it's terrifying. It's amazing writing and it's disturbing because it's real.. it's so raw. It makes me worry about you. You go way deep... like you go to some other dimension.. a really dark and scary one. This is why you're my favorite author. So congrats on this and thank you for not writing rape like it's a little speed bump that can be forgiven. There's no driving on and forgetting. Thanks for giving us this haunting and scary missing piece of the Pretender puzzle.
Nothing like her mother.
Aack! You killed me! It's totes cool tho. Raines would do something like this. He killed mom, too. Guess I'm like mom after all. Face. Name.... oh, so my first name is Catherine. I like that. Killed by Raines. Headstone. I get to actually be in her coffin.
I just want to know how you are able to come up with teh orginale and didn't even use 100 words?! Holy amazeballs. I'm glad Jarod is crying for me. More please?
Okay, I see what you're doing there, THE Miss Parker.
Thank you for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker Signed-
WOOT! My namesake and Jarod are throwing the stabby words at each other, both are scared, Parker's got some guilt, Jarod feels she's betraying him. Those kids! They're all in character! Lordt!
I was afraid you were going have her help him escape, or they were gong to escape together, or he was going to escape alone. They can do any of those later but there's gotta be some Centre creaminess mixed into the yummy blend of dark roasted darkness you're brewing for us. Thank you for doing the hard thing.
I was worried that you had left us for another fandom. Please don't leave us. Write more. Update everything. I could read you all the time 22/7. I love this tv series and you keep it alive. Don't ever stop. I'm forever grateful to you.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedLove it already. So plausible and brilliant.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedI can read this over and over. You say so much with so few words.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedOoh 😲 I love Jarrod's passion when he tells Parker she couldn't see what a blind woman saw and I love he feels guilty. This is genius and I love the twists. I eagerly wait for more
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedHeeyy!! I thought you were gonna gloss over my review of Lucanua but yay you !!!You really answered and still didn't answer 😂 but I understand what you mean and why you wouldn't want to get up in his face and some fans are rude and entitled. Very well articulated and I love reading your thoughts too and everything you write. You'd be so cool to hang with ...you just vibe with everyone.
I love this chapter. Jarod should have beat that bastard's arse!
I can't wait to read what happens now!!
Reviewer: The Miss Parker Signed"Jarod IS your job."
I mean... damn. Where's the lie tho? Lyle ain't lyin'. So Miss Parker of her to dump Jarod in the Centre and avoid him. She does deserve some peace from Jarod tho. No 3 AM calls, no showing up at the bank adulting day, no stalking her in graveyards. I don't blame her. I see all of the perspectives, same as you. You always blow me away doll. Keep going!
Oh... and Jarod killed that bastard? I thought he might while chisling away that Tattoo. One wrong tap and heart gets pierced. I love it. GI NO deserved to die.
Parker seems troubled by that too tho. She does worry about things like that, Jarod being pushed too far, snapping. Oh delicious. This is a juicy one Mirage. I love it.
Finished business.
More. Miss Parker commands it. Love this!
Reviewer: The Miss Parker SignedA last resort
Magnificent!! I love how snarky-dark Jarod can be, brings back memories of him in the bank with miss p getting up all up in her space, his lips in her hair. Shiver... You're the best! Thank you for this and all your work. Please never stop writing for us!!
Aha, thank you for providing that example of Jarod deliberately being an (in)complete weirdo. So, we all did watch the same dvds, after all, and I don't own a one-of-a-kind darkJarod edition Pretender dvd box set. Thanks for that. And thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: The Miss Parker Signed
Ohh uh-huh I love it. You do justice to my namesake... and to my tormentor. Thanks for entertaining me. What would I do without you to keep them all alive?
Aw, thanks, The Miss Parker
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