Ooooh! Whoa! Wow! WOW! Uhhhh Mirage! I thought Lyle and  the others would get there in time to stop MP from sexing with Jarod. MPs mind would be reeling from thoughts of sex with Jarod. It's a big deal for so many reasons! The best fics all show how demure she can be when the armor falls off...just like when she got wet and cold in Scotland! :) You totally nailed these scenes.

"Bitter tears filled his eyes."I want you to trust me," He cried, "but I can't make you do it. You're not thinking clearly-""A knife in your neck, Jarod. How the hell is that for clarity?" Ooh thats our MP!

Some humour in this. "Play it!" lol. Lyle's concern is...unexpected but I really like it even tho not much of a Lyle fan. Ooho Mirage the flashback scene with MPs training was wonderful! The seamless transitions are brilliant! I'm nervous about what is coming and can't stop speed reading!!!

No I am still reading. I got sidetracked. Oh WOW Mirage that medical stuff is so real the way you write it. Jarod a doctor is something I don't expect from you for some reason. It was great though. You and your muse must been at war kicking each others @ss.

"Eating like this will kill you, Jarod." She stated and drank another sip of coffee."Not if the Centre kills me first." He smiled and took a bite.

lol!

Poor Jarod! He sobbed cos he wanted to let her go when she asked him to but he couldn't let go of her or she would have fallen and gotten hurt and he loves her but her mind went to the worst scenario and its so wild that the next ending IS the worst scenario. I don't know how your mind works you gotta be smart to pull it off like this! It's amazing Mirage and its not a 1 time thing either cos you still write the best stories I'veever read.

fav lines...

"What is it, Jarod?" She asked. "Barbiturate Brew, Tranquilizing Tonic, Paranoia Potion. Or is it all of the above, you son of a bitch? My God, not even Broots has to resort to drugging women!" OW! Damn that had to hurt. I love it it's what she'd say in that situation!

"I am not afraid of you!" She asserted, angrily. A lie, yes, however, it was an Oscar worthy one. "You're a coward, a coward," she repeated, incisively. "If you're waiting for me to beg, you're going to be waiting a long time." She hissed. "You want to kill me, Jarod?" She asked, and then snarled at him: "Do it." an oscar worthy one. Love that! MP will be tough even when she's not.

"You were always good at leaving" ...that kills me Mirage that she said that to Jarod. She still resents him for leaving her behind in the Centre when he escaped.  Ohh oohhhh my Goddd! Uh!  I love this chapter so much. I still love Perdition the most.

Ok I like that she was dreaming again...it feels like some foreshadowing again...and still makes all 3 ending plausible! You are brilliant!

You explained everything so perfectly about sexual assault. you didn't just use the abuses as a plot twist, you didn't dismiss it, excuse him, you didn't overlook it, or tip toe around it and you really show us how bad it can get and how a persons mind and body I guess in way work against a persons own wants. MP is just a human no matter what armor she puts on for the world. Thank you for not forgetting about the abuse thanks for allowing it complicate everything as it should and would. Irreconcilable differences you betcha. There is no getting over that.You are real. My favorite lines...I have so many here a few...

"A white bolt of lightning split the purple sky, etched a jagged path to the mountain floor; the beauty above was a dagger sharp contrast to the ugliness lurking beneath her feet."

"A voice begged to be released, prayers fell on deaf ears as unseeing eyes turned to more important matters and the bad people crept past the omnipresent.There were more pressing matters: which mediocre contestant would win best Idol or who would outwit, outplay, and outlast- those people didn't even understand the meaning of the word "survive"." WOW WOW!

"What other way?" Parker asked. She felt the floor lurch, the room tilt; she blinked, dismissed it, attributed it to irrational fears. Until Jarod turned, presented her with the glint of the needle, fluid in the syringe."This way." He replied." OMG!

OK the way this began with her back on the road still traveling not yet at the cabin was PERFECT and more foreshadowing and more of the dream within a dream within a bitch of a nightmare thing you do! I loveit. I lvoe that Zach is their child. I love the hospital stuff. Wow it's so accurate! It's perfect Mirage!

I was so afraid that this woudl ahppen and I think it really added to the strain of their relationship later. I'd have to quote them alll again so I'll move on. I still see both faces of Jarod and how it could be all a really bad dream. You are genius.

"Life wasn‘t perfect. It was life after all. "

“Stop it!” He shouted. And she did."

"You won't be satisfied until you destroy us both!"

"With the truth?" He asked incredulously.  "With the past!" She screamed."

Jarod-"They tried to destroy you, both of us and we need to know-" Parker-  "Must you finish what they started?" She asked.

"Parker wrenched herself loose from his grasp. "Don't you fucking get it!" She screamed through clenched teeth.He reached for her again but found his hands being knocked away and as if she hadn't already made her point, she retreated several steps backwards. "I don't want to know!""

"his elation suddenly waned: The telephone call wasn't been wholly unexpected; the fingers of doubt tugged at him on occassion, crept along his skin, tapped him on the shoulder hey, hey buddy, remember me? The past? and Jarod had chosen to ignore the wrenching in his gut. Until it became impossible to ignore it. He recalled the afternoon vividly; they'd had a silly lover's spat about something trivial and were commencing make up sex." yah to make up sex! I love the way the past tapped him on the shoulder and said  hey buddy remember me? Awesome Mirage. F8**ing awesome!

"Touch. It was always a big no-no, until the Isle where everything changed. Their fingers had touched by accident, and again when he had taken her hand in his, after, of course, first reaching between her legs to retrieve her hand.The boy had damn near cleared all four bases on the field in one go during their Isle adventure."

I love the Barry Manilow reference lol@ Too funny! old women do throw their panties at him! I like some of his songs...and some air supply to (they talked about that on the show during the Junkie episode lol).

It was great to see Parker getting ready to go kill Vince too! I love this!

I was all like oh my goddd! Mirage the dinner with Jarod, Sebastain and Parker was so amazingly written. The converstaion....I was just oh godd the whole time. I kept saying it out loud oh god lol! I can imagine it so well because of your beatiful writing. It was so much tension and then Jarod confesses in a away...that ending here on this chapter the way they came together and she tried to lie about her feelings for Jarod...oh Mirage! Big hugs to  you!

I dont' know how you did it Mirage but you made Zoe a person I can like and respect and I like how Miss Parker was instrumental in bringing about her change. Miss Parker would want to help people who can't help themselves, children, animals. Zoe is like a child and always been child like to me. I thought Jarod was insane for having sex with someone that much younger... or even immature than he is. Even if she wasn't that much younger, she is young emotionally. That was messed up of him. I try to pretend that Zoe never happened.

I like this song. I had to some searching to find those lyrics to find the song  those lyrics go tell. It's James Ingram. That song is so MPJ to me! Girl you know music!

I can see both sides of Jarod in each chapter. The Perdition Jarod. The ID ending Jarod. I can see how this would all be some wild ass  really bad weird dream too.

Scoops. What else is there to say! I love the place and I can see it. Your descriptive work is far and away the best I've ever read. Perry Como and all those songs...don't know who that is but I listened to the music at spotify and it is good. It is very old!!

OK Reading with the Perdition ending in mind.....Jarod grew angry talking to her and he had fight it back and control himself to keep up the pretend. You are a genius!

BUT With the Irreconciblable differences ending in my mind it's just that he couldn't stand that Parker was blaming herself and was so low on life because he loves her.

It's just like one of those books when I was 11 where you choose different pages and take a different story direction and ending. This is on a huge level though Mirage! Do you even know what you accomplished here? It is amazing. You are amazing! And you wanted to all be a bad dream so you wrote the third Oz ending...I like that 1 too but I like Perdition more.

I went ahead and read all of this story and I love it. Now I will go back and finish the review part.

I was all like holy shit when that voice of Jarod's said "why didn't you?" That is SO like Jarod. I could feel my insides clench when MP gets into trouble with Jarod like this. She turns her back on him after that and it's just like MP to be all defiant and be also like she doesn't care either way...that's how she did it on the show like she didnt even care.

This line is perfect for Jarod... "even if the truth hurt. He, therefore, had hurt her with honesty, time and time again, painfully aware that Parker believed he achieved a great deal of satisfaction from doing so. The game, the war, their one-upmanship. Someone had to win. And someone had to lose. And sometimes, they both lost."

I love this too..."He was annoyed by her oblique responses, her tendencies to palliate the truth."

Tragic the way she left. I thought that was it and then...what came next...my mouth is still open like o.