It was a stroke of freaking genius to leave it all unresolved. Astra will continue to bind them, force proximity on them. The circle won't end . They both seem to recognize the problem but still are blinded by love.

This has been a joy and terror to read and I'm grateful to you for writing it and taking it to the non-end.

This is a masterpiece!

I would literally pay Michael T Weiss to say "take your hands off of my wife."  I mean..omg. I'd pay him to say every one of jarods words in your stories.. it would be extra icing on this cake!

Parker does still love Jarod tho doesn't she? I think she does but doesn't want to. I think Jarod knows it too. He's giving her what she wants anyway thinking it will make her happy. I could easily see all of this happen.

lol your notes, like your stories, are brlliant! The way they feed off each other, the way she shifts when he shifts.. is so plausible. He becomes a different version of himself and she does the same and it's a circle. It's a terrible cycle. This is so plausible. The most plausible piece of fiction ever.

Oh, you have the characters down pat and that's always obvious when I read you. You bring them to life like I've only ever seen on tv. It's amazing.  It makes the content even more terrifying.

Parker arguing with Jarod point two really. Zeke is Jarod. She's surrounded by Jarod. It has to feel like the walls and roof are caving in on her. I love that you wrote it, that you gave real attention to it, and provided details. Some people will never understand this kind of situation until they live it and barely survive it. I don't know why you wrote it. I know you didn't want to write it and seemed to  take a back seat to that muse or whatever that takes over in the best authors. You didn't resist or hold back. I'm proud of you and this work and I appreciate how amazingly wiritten it is.

Oh my god it's so haunting the way Jarod is so exactly like the Jarod we know and love, carrying her in his arms. Oh, god. I can understand why she {and why other authors} would gloss over the rapes and try to forget. The rapes seem like small events in a sea of happier events sometimes. She would want to move on from that and forget. It's really a circle of hell too because it spins right back around to the past. She relives it over and over.

I love it. I don't expect a happy ending. How could I? The summary back in chapter 1 tells me it's not a cheerful fluffy piece. Thank you for writing it. Was it hard to write this? I don't know if I could get my mind to follow through all the way with it. Writing the rape is one thing. Another rape on top is worse and then to have to go through to the end.. Sounds painful

Oh, I love it. A literal "resort" [maybe the last resort they ever visit together??] and a "last resort" ei last ditch effort. I love your play on words, double meanings, the way different stories and lives in the fics parallel.

She's still in love with him. That sounds hard. I know it happens tho. I've never seen it written. I know that in another of your stories[it was Oblivion] Parker told Jarod that she didn't leave because she had fallen out of love with him.

This holds true. She didn't run away in this fic because she stopped loving him. She ran because he hurt her, and she was terrified. I think some of that terror comes from still having the feelings. She knew he could use her feelings for him to manipulate her. I think that's a valid fear.

Usually when authors write about rape in fanfic or anywhere the rape is glossed over, forgotten. The aftermath of it, the trauma is never even mentioned. Ever. They pair end up happily ever after. Parker even pursues a love relationship with Jarod sometimes in those stories. Jarod is delicious. I know that. Look at the guy. He's Michael T. Weiss. Of course he's hot.I understand why those authors would do that and have Parker overlook the rape for a happy ending with him. But it isn't honest. It doesn't matter how hot he is. It's rape. It's terrible.

BUT you show it. You let the story continue and you do it honestly. This is what rape really looks like. She was running from her feelings for a rapist and this is why. She's still confused. You show the pain, the confusion, the regret. She is still in love with him and doesn't want to be but can't help it.

This is accurate, scary, and brilliantly written.

I'm wowed.

You get it.. Some people don't get it,  I read somewhere that this and FON were social experiments. I know some people defend Jarod no matter what he does.

You aren't those people. I love that about you.

This is a tragic and plausible story that needed to be written.

Donald Trump came along after this to run and showed his predator side and people still defend him no matter what too. He admitted to grabbing what he wanted and women were like yeah that's what he did to me but society laughed at those women and defend donnie.
I think you understand this ...I hope I'm right. People are frustrating. If it were Lyle and not Jarod people would have been like "Lyle needs to DIE die die."

Do you think there's a bias for Jarod and against Lyle? I do. If this was a social experiment we learned that people will defend certain offenders no matter what they do....and blame victims .  A thought provoking story. That's one reason I live you. It's my favorite characters and it's philosophical, psychological, and intelligent.

I hope to read more like this from you.

Victims often get sucked back in. Jarod is charming, handsome, and has done good things. It's a cycle of abuse you're writing. That's obvious or is to me. Circles of hell , cycles. It's a theme you have her. This couldn't have been easy to write. You do seem .. don't take this wrong.. I think you may be had to make yourself kind of numb and desensitized to be able to articulate this all so well. Even if you've never been in the situation you know enough about it to include small details that only people close to that kind of situation could know.

Whatever the case is I'm glad you wrote it.

Ahhhhhh your descriptive work always stuns me and makes me catch my breath.

It's so plausible, so in character. I just can't!!!

I love you!!!!!!!

She still doesn't want anything to do with him. She doesn't want his money. This is exactly what someone in the situation would do

Jarod needing to get drunk to confess his sins means he isn't sorry at all . The lack of remorse is what leads to more dysfunction. I've been paying attention. Bravo!

Ummm did readers seriously ever believe a happy ending would be born out of a story titled "circles of hell" with your added words "twisted tale of despair"????? Do people not read the room?? lol.I know there are stories where Jarod rapes Parker and she pursues him!! This already obviously wasn't going to be that kind of story. This is more realistic. The only reason a rape victim would pursue a rapist is to kill him. I don't usually go in for rape stories but this needed to be written and it's honest. I don't mind graphic content as long as the story is honest and authentic. Yours is.

Always with that knife twist Mirage.

I've worked with so many domestic violence victims and personally have seen abuse get this out of control. It's so plausible. Jarod is so dangerous.. He's has his trauma and I've always thought he was resentful and angry at Miss Parker on the TV series . He did enjoy tormenting her. He really terrorized so many people.

This really resonates

I do feel sorry for Zoe. She wasn't likeable at all on the tv series but your prespective casts her in a different light. She never really knew Jarod and still doesn't and that's his fault. He pursued her but never let her in, just really was stringing her along on the series and cannonically you continued that and I respect you for not straying from what we already know to be true.

Can I just say that I love how you just tackle this topic. Some authors dance around it. Even on the tv series the word used was "attack" never rape. You yank away the stigma and call it by it's name and we need more of this kind of conversation. You aren't afraid of honesty.

I could always see Jarod raping her. It's what I really expecting to happen every time a new season came out. I don't know how to explain why. He abused sooo many positions of authority and crossed sooo many lines and always justified it and even fans justified it.

Like a roach he crept into Miss Parker's house while she slept and tampered with her gun. I don't care what his intentions were either. There's a power balance. He's a genius, a pretender, and she is not. I thought IOTH would be the tipping over point. He said, "we're alone now" and I was like oh shit here we go.

This is one of the most plausible pieces of literature I've ever read. Thank you for writing it.